Do I need help, am I crazy?

wow. this is really sad. uhmmm idk what to tell you except to get some help... you sound very, very, very depressed, but you already know that. im so sorry i cant be of more help to you. i wish i could actually help you. but you have to let someone close to you emotionally so they can help you out bud. it may be painful or make you pissed but you have to do it. your life is worth living. your time isnt up. it sounds like your real life is just begining so dont give up now. please dont stop living life to its fullest. pull yourself out, i know you can do it. i dont know why you started acting like this and secluding yourself, but you. must. STOP. this is not who you are meant to be. youre meant to be a sucess. youre meant to go places. and you will.